A World Apart

Being separated from your child for the first time is a feeling like no other. It is like a part of me was taken and I am being held in shackles, unable to get it back. Although she is with her mother and only going to Texas for a week, my protective duty as a father has been taken from me. Now that I'm out of the picture, I must trust in God completely. Ahh, must have been his plan all along. Maybe I have been trusting in myself way to much lately. My heart goes out to all of the military men and women who must leave their children for months and years at a time. I cannot imagine the toll that takes on a persons life.
So here I sit. I must gather myself together and focus on the mounds of school work before me while Aubrey, her Mom and Lydia drive across the country. The dogs will get my semi-undivided attention for the first time in a long while. I plan on studying more than ever and getting back on a workout plan while I have extra time this week. But I know Friday will be here quickly and I will be on a plane to Austin. Therefore I mustn't tarry too long. I pray Aubrey and Lydia have a safe and enjoyable trip. I already can't wait to see both my girls again, but right now I feel a world apart.

Fall in Missouri

This very well could be our first and last Fall to live in Missouri. That is exciting and a little sad because it is so beautiful up here during the Fall. That is definitely one thing Texas is missing, the distinct seasons that hang around for a while. Nothing like walking outside in the 60 degree weather feeling a slight breeze while the bright orange and red leaves fall around you. There is just something comforting about this time of year.
Speaking of Fall, I'm officially on "Fall Break" starting today. We kicked it off last night with a nice bonfire at a classmates house. It was an absolute perfect night for it. Lydia experienced her first night out at a bonfire in a cow pasture. She must have enjoyed it because she didn't cry about it. We are going to try to go to Eureka Springs, AR tomorrow. Mainly to get out of Springfield for the day and experience some more of the beautiful Ozark Mountains. However I must not completely forget about my school because I have enough material to catch up on that would keep me busy for this entire break. I can't complain because I only have about 7 weeks left in the classroom! The amount of knowledge I have gained in this short amount of time is crazy. It is hard for me to distinguish what I have learned from what I already knew coming into the program. We had a lecturer tell us yesterday that the reason we do a clinical year is so we can attach what we have learned to an emotion. That emotion being a real person, this is how our brains make long lasting memories. This is why you can remember things so much better from times when we were really scared, excited, emotional.
My latest excitement is nicknamed Baby Girl. She seems to be getting smarter daily. Aubrey and I have a good balance on parenting. She is more nurturing while I like to challenge Lyd to do new things. I'm sure this girl will amaze me for years to come. Well I think I will wrap this up for now since I am hitting a writers block. Enjoy this amazing weather fellow blogger(s).